In fact, they barely missed it.

“If you make any more comments about this girl over here and I find out,” Koen says, too low for anyone but the three of us to hear, “it’ll be your throat.”

I shiver. The man breathes hard, clutching his wrist to his chest.

“Show me you understood.”

He nods quickly.

“Very good. C’mon, Serena.” Koen’s arm wraps around my shoulder. “I need you to make me a sandwich.”

I let him lead me to the door, feeling as though I’m moving through water. “Koen?”

“Hmm?”

“What just happened?”

“You gave an interview that stuck a bull’s- eye on your back, despite my repeatedly stated and very valid objections.”

“No, I meant— ” Stepping outside is like walking into a wall made of screams. Unsurprisingly, my presence here has attracted a crowd big enough that the network busted out the VIP barriers.

“— abomination— ”

“— never forget what the Weres did to my people— ”

“— liar, you’re a liar— ”

“— blessed with the power of blood and the blood of power, the flesh will be reborn and take new shapes— ”

The last one is my personal favorite. Koen’s, too, judging from how his pupils turn into slits.

But there are half a dozen We love you, Serena, you’re so brave, you’re still one of us signs, and I smile at their owners as Koen pushes me forward and opens the passenger door of the car for me.

He grabs the edge of the roof to protect my head. When I slip onto the seat, he leans against the door and says into my ear, “You did good in there, killer.”

The shrieks, the interview, the man bleeding in the lobby— it all becomes background noise.

I look up at him. Don’t bother hiding my smile. “High praise.”

“Didn’t say you did great,” he mutters, closing the door after me.

We do have sandwiches for dinner, but Koen’s the one who ends up making them, with a little help from Ana.

CHAPTER 5

His seconds like her, they have from the very start.

Traitors.

Present day

IWAKE UP FLOATING SEVERAL FEET ABOVE THE GROUND— AND promptly decide to go back to sleep.

This is nice. I am, for once, not cold. My bed smells pleasant and woodsy, not at all like rancid nightmare sweat. The pillow is the perfect consistency. Everything about the situation is cozy and restful, and I see no reason to interrupt it— until a worried voice pierces through my cocoon of joy.

“Please, tell me that she’s sleeping and not unconscious.”

My eyes flutter open, and two realizations hit me: the person speaking is Amanda, Koen’s closest second.

And I’m very much not in bed.

Koen is carrying me inside a cabin that doesn’t look too different from the one in which I’d spent the last weeks, one arm hooked under my bent knees, the other cradling me to his chest. My head nestles in the side of his throat, where the scratch of his beard tickles my cheek. The events of last night wash over me in rolling waves.

Look at me, living to see another day.

“What time is it?” I ask.

“Almost dawn.”

We must be a few hours away from my cabin, then. “Are we in the Southwest?” That’s where he’s going to take me, right? Back to Misery and Lowe.

“Still Northwest. We stopped at one of our safe houses.”

Lazily, I paw at Koen’s shoulder and stretch in his arms. “I can walk.”

“Me too. Wanna start a club?”

“Can I be president?”

“Treasurer at most.”

“No deal.” I yawn into the spot at the base of his neck, which causes his grip to falter first and then tighten. “Seriously, you can let go of me.”

He does, but only because we’ve reached our destination. He deposits me on a worn-out but clean sectional and then proceeds to look down at me with a frown.

“You okay?” he asks, gruff. “Anything feel . . . loose inside?”

“Loose? Like what?”

“I don’t fucking know. An artery?”

I decide to ignore the question, and ask, “Do you know what a man bun is?”

“A what?”

“Hmm. Must not have made it to the Weres. I was just wondering whether the lumbersexual vibes were on purpose?”

He scowls. Leans down. Cups my nape with one hand, while the fingers of the other slide through my hair, now matted with sweat, mud, and Bob’s blood. His grip is gentle. Soothing.

“What are you doing?”

“Feeling for a bump.”

“Why?”

“Might explain the sudden onset of aphasia.”

I snort out a laugh. “Come on, Koen. Tell me you at least yell ‘timber’ every once in a while.”

The only thing he’s ready to tell me is that he’ll have me institutionalized. It’s for the best, then, that Amanda sinks down next to me and wraps me in a hug.

“Look at you. Not even a little bit dead.” She grins. By the time she pulls away, Koen is gone. “Despite your high-stakes, violent existence.”

I snort again, looking at her round face, flawless dark skin, full lips. She’s around Koen’s age, even though she could pass for a high schooler. That’s where the similarities end: she’s kind and humorous, and I don’t believe I’ve ever heard her call someone a “rotten cockwomble.”

“I missed you,” she tells me. She and I met only recently, but we got close very quickly. Koen wouldn’t allow me to move into the cabin without periodic supervision and tasked her with coming to check on me once a week or so. I don’t really consider myself in the market for new friendships, not at this stage of my . . . life, let’s call it, but there are only so many games of I Spy one can play (seventeen, to be precise) before starting to miss meaningful conversation. By the second visit, we were dumping on each other like coal trimmers on the Titanic. Pretty cathartic— if mostly abridged and highly redacted on my part. “You don’t look too well.”

I smile. “Yeah. So I hear.”

“Sorry some asshole Vampyre interfered with your search for, uh, inner peace.”

I am profoundly embarrassed that my cover story for needing to stay at the cabin required me to utter words like harmony and serenity with a straight face. Sometimes, you just do what you have to. “It’s okay. It’s been very . . . restorative,” I lie bald-facedly. Weres can usually pick up fibs, but they struggle to make sense of me. Being a hybrid has its pros. Well . . . pro. Singular.

“Thank God Koen was in your area to meet with huddle leaders.” Amanda takes my hand. “I was shitting myself when Lowe told us about the Vampyre tracking you.”

“I was not,” Jorma says, stepping inside the room. He’s another of Koen’s seconds— a stern, statuesque man with white-blond curls and icy-blue eyes. Jorma loves rules, unnecessary clerical work, waiting in line, and— hazarding a guess, here— bland foods covered in protein powder. His childhood dream was probably to become a hall monitor. I’ve seen him smile only once, and it was a terrifying process, like he’d learned how to move his facial muscles from a book. I hope it never happens again. “Serena has bested several Vampyres in a fight before.” He nods at me in approval. “No reason to worry about her.”

I should be grateful for what’s obviously as close to a compliment as Jorma gets, but his misplaced faith just makes me want to shrink into the couch. “Yeah. Thanks,” I croak.

The last second in the cabin is Saul— who, unlike Jorma, has never filled out a form in his life, communicates mostly through grins and winks, and is the biggest, loudest flirt I’ve ever met. “Honey,” he says instead of Hello. He takes me in with a pained expression. “The hoodie-chic, blood-spattered, final-girl outfit suits you. The hair, not so much.”

I pout. “But my stylist said it was so me.”

“You deserve a refund.” He bends to kiss my cheek. “You look rough. Need a hug? Chamomile tea? A coloring book with some pencils? All of the above?”