He still thought of his father some—vague impressions at the very fringes of far more trivial memories—but when his mind finally seemed to settle, it did not bring him to House Uyane at all, but to Tilev, where he had stood his training. He could see its halls in his mind as clearly as the cloister of Xi’Tothax would be now if he only opened his eyes, and this unexpected clarity so surprised him that he did open them.

The fires burned low in the holy forge before him. It would need its keeper to fuel it soon. Sheul’s forges must never be allowed to grow dark.

Glancing aside, Meoraq counted three priests among the few men come at this early hour to make their prayers. None of them seemed in the least otherworldly. As he watched, one of them stole a hand into the side-pocket of his robe and scratched at his groin. Hardly the act of some divine vision. No, he was awake and his mind, though far from quiet, did not ring with the voice of Sheul as He lent a needful son His guidance.

Well, he was done here, wasn’t he? He’d run out of prayers long ago, even after repeating several of them. He hadn’t paid an ear to the ringing of the hours, but judging by the people around him, he would put it at three. Nearly dawn. If he left now, he could catch almost a full hour’s sleep before the meal was called at four and be on the road again right after.

The road home. To Xeqor. To renounce his oaths as Sheulek and take up the stewardship of his bloodline.

Meoraq shuddered, then hissed annoyance because he had shuddered, and finally bent and pressed his brow to the cold tiles because he had startled several people around him with the hiss. A Sheulek must be his own master at all times, over his flesh and over his emotions. He breathed deeply. He found calm. He closed his eyes.

And was again in the halls of Tilev. Vaguely at first, but soon with the same surprising clarity as before, until he felt almost as though he could reach out his hand and touch the door that stood ajar before him in his imaginings.

It was a door he knew, a memory he had often revisited, and he was comfortable watching it all play out again in the quiet of his meditations. Gradually, the sounds of praying worshippers and groin-scratching priests faded out until this memory became a kind of reality. Between one slow breath and another, Meoraq slipped away from his true self and became the boy he had been at fifteen, his considerably smaller body drawn tense with apprehension as he stood outside Master Tsazr’s door.

* * *

He’d been Master Tsazr’s brunt that year. A boy of fifteen and a brunt. Not the youngest ever to hold that rank, but two full years younger than most. Then again, Meoraq was the son of a Sheulek, and more, a son of House Uyane, the championing House of all Xeqor. So it did not wholly surprise him to receive a brunt’s tabard on his return to school, and it would not surprise him three years later to hear that Nduman had received his, or six years after that, when even Salkith had one (although he recalled that it did surprise Salkith). They were the sons of House Uyane and, for good or ill, there were expectations.

Perhaps because of this, Meoraq had been assigned to serve Tsazr Dyuun, the weapons master, who was notorious for his physical approach to discipline when it came to dealing with high-born students…and their fathers, when necessary. It was true that Meoraq had received many slaps as Tsazr’s brunt, but not undeservedly and never for trying to hide behind the shield of his father’s reputation. And Tsazr had never sought to provoke him on the subject, or even indicated that he knew Meoraq’s father, although Meoraq knew he and Rasozul had shared the same circuit in their years of judgment. He was a hard man, Tsazr, and he had a hard hand, but Meoraq had served him half a year and could say honestly that he was much improved for it and hoped to be brunt to him again the following year (if he was called, he supposed he should say, although there was no real doubt. His were not the highest marks, but there were few boys of his age who knew the Word better and none at all who could best him in the ring).

The brunts enjoyed a fair amount of celebrity among the other students for the very few privileges afforded them along with innumerable additional responsibilities. The position was, of course, in reference to Prophet Lashraq’s own brunt, who had set the highest possible standard for devotion and piety while in service to another, but who had not (as was often bitterly remarked at the brunts’ table) been asked to make top marks in school at the same time. Meoraq’s duties were possibly even more strenuous than the others, with Master Tsazr to judge them, but they had been greatly diminished in the sixty-some days prior to the moment when he stood before this open door. Master Tsazr had been away, and not just away, but away on a pilgrimage. As his brunt, Meoraq had harbored secret hopes that he might journey along with his master, and he yet remembered the acid disappointment with which he had watched Tsazr walk away through the gate, leaving him behind with little to do but run errands for the watchmen and bully his younger brothers around in front of their age-mates. Still, to have a master away on a pilgrimage was a point of pride to any brunt, and this pilgrimage even more than any other because Master Tsazr had gone to Xi’Matezh.

Xi’Matezh. Spoken one way, it meant Forge of the Soul; with raised inflection, it became All-Beginnings; solemnly and with proper pitch, it was The One Heart. All names were truth.

Xi’Matezh had stood since the Fall of the Ancients, and although it had done so well beyond the reach of any city and without a steward of any kind to care for it, it had not fallen into ruins. Nor would it ever, it was said, for Sheul dwelled there as tangibly as any mortal man. It was well known that the doors of Xi’Matezh’s inner sanctum stayed fast against the vast majority of those who sought entry there, but the doors did open for some. And while rumor made many claims after that, upon one point all tales agreed: those judged worthy to enter heard the voice of Sheul. Not in prayer, not in dreams, not in the quiet reaches of their conscience, but the true voice of the living God.

So it was to Xi’Matezh that Master Tsazr traveled in the first year of Meoraq’s service to him and it was from Xi’Matezh that he had returned. That was the word awaiting him when Meoraq emerged from lessons and so he had raced across the whole of Tilev and up three flights of stairs to find that indeed his master’s door stood open.

All of this ran once more through Meoraq’s meditations, bringing fresh color to old memory until it was nearly with the same sense of excitement that Meoraq the Sheulek watched the brunt that he had been raise his hand and push his master’s open door further open. And it was new all over again—to see the man who had been so long absent sitting on the ledge of his window as though he had never left. Just sitting there, motionless, watching the wind blow clouds across the sky.

Meoraq’s first thought was that he didn’t look as if he’d been gone sixty days, even sixty days walking across the wildlands. He looked older. Not just tired or travel-worn, but older. By years.

Master Tsazr had not seemed to notice him yet. That didn’t necessarily mean he hadn’t, but Meoraq knew he ought to leave. Being Tsazr’s brunt did not give him the right to come so far into his master’s private chambers and he knew it. Still he lingered, not quite daring to intrude but hesitant to retreat.

There was mud on Tsazr’s boots. Wet, black mud on the soles, fresh from the world just without the walls of Xeqor. Black mud, yes, but under that, caked high on the leg and staining the laces, was older mud, as red as rusted iron and proof of a far larger world…a world that only the Sheulek could wholly claim.