‘Right.’ With a sigh, he hauled himself to his feet. ‘Do you still see Ian?’
‘Not for years now.’
‘Nobody else on the horizon?’
‘Don’t you start, Dexter.’
‘What?’
‘Sympathy for the spinster. I’m perfectly content, thank you. And I refuse to be defined by my boyfriend. Or lack of.’ She was starting to speak with real zeal now. ‘Once you decide not to worry about that stuff anymore, dating and relationships and love and all that, it’s like you’re free to get on with real life. And I’ve got my work, and I love that. I’ve got I reckon one more year to really make a go of it. The money’s tiny, but I’m free. I go to the movies in the afternoon.’ She paused momentarily. ‘Swimming! I swim a lot. I swim and I swim and I swim, mile after mile. God, I fucking hate swimming. Turn left, I think.’
‘You know, I feel the same. Not about swimming, I mean about not having to dateanymore. Since I’ve been with Sylvie, it’s like I’ve freed up this vast amount of time and energy and mental space.’
‘And what do you do with it all, this mental space?’
‘Play Tomb Raidermostly.’
Emma laughed, and walked a little further in silence, worrying that she was coming across as less self-contained and empowered than she had intended. ‘And anyway, it’s not like I’m completely, you know, boring and, and loveless. I have my moments. I had this thing with a guy called Chris. Called himself a dentist but he was really just a hygienist.’
‘What happened to Chris?’
‘Just fizzled out. Just as well. I was convinced that he was always staring at my teeth. Kept nagging me to floss, Emma, floss.Going on a date was like going for a check-up. Too much pressure. And before that there was Mr Godalming.’ She shuddered. ‘Mr Godalming. What a disaster.’
‘Who was Mr Godalming?’
‘Another time. Left, right?’
‘Left.’
‘Anyway, if I ever get really desperate, there’s always your offer to fall back on.’
Dexter stopped walking. ‘What offer?’
‘Do you remember you used to say if I was still single when I got to forty you’d marry me?’
‘Did I say that?’ He winced. ‘Bit patronising.’
‘I thought so at the time. But don’t worry, I don’t think it’s legally binding or anything, I’m not going to hold you to it. Besides, there’s still seven years to go. Plenty of time. .’ She began walking again, but Dexter stood still behind her, rubbing his head like a boy who is about to reveal that he’s broken the best vase.
‘I’m afraid I’m sort of going to have to withdraw the offer anyway.’
She stopped and turned.
‘Oh really? Why’s that?’ she said, but a part of her knew already.
‘I’m engaged.’
Emma blinked once, very slowly.
‘Engaged to what?’
‘To be married. To Sylvie.’
A moment passed, perhaps half a second when their faces said what they felt, and then Emma was smiling, laughing, her arms around his neck. ‘Oh, Dexter. That’s amazing! Congratulations!’ and she went to kiss his cheek just as he turned his head, their mouths glancing for a moment so that they tasted the champagne on each other’s lips.
‘You’re pleased?’
‘Pleased? I’m destroyed! But really, seriously, that’s fantastic news.’
‘You think so?’
‘More than fantastic, it’s, it’s. . rad! It’s rad and sweet. It’s old skool!’
He stepped back from her and searched inside his jacket. ‘In fact, that’s why I dragged you in here. I wanted to give you this in person—’
A thick envelope of heavy lilac paper. Emma took it gingerly, and peered inside. The envelope was quilted with tissue paper and the invitation itself had hand-torn edges and seemed to be made of some sort of papyrus or parchment. ‘Now that—’ Emma balanced it like a table on her upturned fingertips ‘— that is what I call a wedding invitation.’
‘Isn’t it?’
‘That is some elaborate stationery.’
‘Eight quid each.’
‘That’s more than my car.’
‘Smell it, go on. .’
‘Smell it?’ Warily, she held it to her nose. ‘It’s scented! Your wedding invitations are scented?’
‘It’s meant to be lavender.’
‘No, Dex — it’s money. It smells of money.’ Carefully, she opened the card, and he watched her as she read, remembering the way she used her fingertips to brush her fringe across her forehead. ‘“Mr and Mrs Lionel Cope invite you to the marriage of their daughter Sylvie to Mr Dexter Mayhew—” I can’t believe I’m actually seeing this in print. Saturday, September 14th. Hang on, that’s only. .’
‘Seven weeks away. .’ and he kept watching her face, that fantastic face to see how it might change when he told her.
‘Seven weeks? I thought these things were years in the making?’
‘Well they are usually, but I think this is what they call a shotgun wedding. .’
Emma frowned, not quite there yet.
‘For three hundred and fifty guests. With Ceilidh.’
‘You mean?. .’
‘Sylvie’s sort of pregnant. Well not sort of. She is. Pregnant. Actually pregnant. With a baby.’
‘Oh, Dexter!’ Once again, her face was against his. ‘Do you know the father? I’m kidding! Congratulations, Dex. God, aren’t you meant to space your bombshells out a bit, not just drop them all at once?’ She held his face in both hands, looked at it. ‘You’re getting married?—’
‘Yes!’
‘—and you’re going to be a father?’
‘I know! Fuck me — a father!’
‘Is that allowed? I mean will they let you?’
‘Apparently.’
‘Don’t suppose you’ve still got that cigarette, have you?’ He reached into his pocket for her. ‘How’s Sylvie about it?’
‘She’s delighted! I mean she’s worried that it’ll make her look fat.’
‘Well I suppose that is a possibility. .’
He lit her cigarette. ‘. . but she wants to get on with it, get married, have kids, make a start. She doesn’t want to end up mid-thirties and all alone—’
‘Like ME!!!’
‘Exactly, she doesn’t want to end up like you!’ He took her hand. ‘That’s not what I meant, of course.’
‘I know. I’m kidding. Dexter, congratulations.’
‘Thank you. Thank you.’ A momentary pause. ‘Let me have a go on that, will you?’ he said as he took the last cigarette from her mouth, placing it between his own lips. ‘Here, look at this. .’ From his wallet, he unfolded a square of smudgy paper, and held it down to the sodium light. ‘It’s the twelve-week scan. Isn’t that incredible?’
Emma took the scrap of paper and peered at it dutifully. The beauty of the ultrasound scan is something that only parents can appreciate, but Emma had seen these things before and knew what was required of her. ‘Beautiful,’ she sighed, though in truth it could have been a Polaroid of the inside of his pocket.
‘See — that’s its spine.’
‘Great spine.’
‘You can even make out the tiny little fingers.’
‘Awww. Boy or girl?’
‘Girl, I hope. Or boy. Don’t care. But you think it’s a good thing?’
‘Absolutely. I think it’s wonderful. Fucking hell, Dexter, I turn my back for one minute. .!’
She hugged him once again, her arms high round his neck. She felt drunk, full of affection and a certain sadness too, as if something was coming to an end. She wanted to say something along these lines, but thought it best to do this through a joke. ‘Of course you’ve just destroyed any chance I had of future happiness, but I’m delighted for you, really.’
He twisted his head to look at her, and suddenly something was moving between them, something alive and vibrating in his chest.
Emma placed her hand there. ‘Is that your heart?’
‘It’s my mobile.’
She stepped back and allowed him to retrieve his phone from his inside pocket. Glancing at the display, he gave his head a little sobering shake, and guiltily handed Emma the cigarette, as if it were a smoking gun. Quickly he recited, ‘Don’t sound drunk don’t sound drunk,’ assumed a tele-sales smile and answered.
